this is ‘dear diary’ talk. all crap. just me and my twisted thoughts, everything starting with: in my humble opinion. i’ll leave comments open though. other points of views are always interesting.
lately i’ve been sharing a lot of thoughts with my friend Lucy..things i find really hard to chat about with other people. one topic amongst others is about what matters in life or living a life that matters. found something inspiring here.
it’s funny how often we forget what really matters. how we sacrifice our present happiness in order to gain happiness later (hopefully if we live long enough to embrace that day) “bersakit2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian” itu sbnrnya agak menyesatkan dan absurd mnrt gw. knapa hrs sakit sih bilangnya? it kinda justifies misery in life. why should misery be justified anyway? if you’re not having fun doing what you’re doing now, what on earth makes you think that you’ll be happy after the pain passes you by? and how could we not ask whether or not this happy thing is actually essential and true if we have to go through hell just to have the possibility to have it?it’s funny that we think everything should be a trade! and judging by the words in the quote, it means that people should just swallow the fact when they’re not in a win-win solution deal (which sadly happens sooo often).
weird.
shouldn’t we be happy all along? to be honest, our so famous sabar and pasrah is often corrupted into being powerless and leaving yourself trapped, THAT kind is NOT an equal meaning to feeling happy. check The Koran to find the essential meaning. dont forget to check the part that tells us that God won’t make changes in lives of people that don’t change things for themselves (i’m not at all an religious expert).
hating what you do, day dreaming you were doing something else or being elsewhere probably means you’re trapped in a job. for what? paying the car you need to get to work? or for paying your baby sitter you need BECAUSE you can’t be at home in order to pay the baby sitter? (get the picture?). having hands on something you are passionate about and feeling fulfilled throughout the day changes the word ‘job’ into ‘pursueing your dreams’ now doesn’t that sound much nicer?
so what does matter in your life then?
well, everything probably roots back to what you think is important i guess. sometimes we think our lives are measured by our possesions, how nice we look, what car we have and how big a house we own, and -being in your late 20s- WHEN you have it is also somewhat crucial. it’s exhausting meeting with friends that don’t talk more than where and what your work is in order to know how much you make, what things you’ve bought, how many kids and how FAST you get them. always comparing with each other. to make it even weird; the look and gesture when you feel you’re cooler and you pity your friend..oh God..have mercy! we DON’T always think COOL is the same thing you know.. Having less doesn’t mean feeling less. sure, money fills bank accounts, owning things show you have afordability, however, it doesn’t necessarily feed your heart and soul though.
hmm..so what’s important for me then? being naturaly happy without having to hypnotize myself into thinking happy, having a good, solid and loving relationship with the husband, being responsible in my marriage, being significant for my family, being useful and helpful, enjoying my hobbies, travelling and seeing places, eating good food, being healthy, convinience in life, surrounded by good friends and much more actually..
dunno why i’m writting this..guess i’m fed up now with all the materialistic crap. about wering masks and spending time pleasing other people and neglecting yourself.
like they say, don’t put up tomorrow what you can do today. including being happy. you never know when your last moment is, chances are it will happen before you could empty your fat bank account..haha..
blom lagi dessert2nya..huhuy!
